gearing up for the holidays

I'm not ready for all of the stores to be playing christmas music

for the last 6 years, I've had the dread when it came to christmas. My mom went into the hospital early in december 2001, and died 4 days after christmas. I just have a hard time, missing her. A few years I've traveled. A few I've been with friends when things went horribly wrong for them.

This year I hope for quiet, and despite my crazy schedule, I'm hoping for a handmade christmas. I know not everything will be, as I don't have time. But I'll try my best to get things made.

right now I need to puppy proof the house so the little boy and girl can come see me for a bit, and I need to catch up. I have data entry from hell to do O.O

ah

life